// Let love sleep//

I always believe that being in love is one of the best feeling in the world. not just best but it’s the happiest. When it hits you, there’s no such word can reciprocate to the “chills-and-shivers-moments”.. that “butterfly-in-the-stomach-feeling” that you just can’t put words on it. Ineffable, Extravagant, Perfect.

But when love ceases, you just don’t know what still holds you up. You don’t know till when it going to ache you. Depressing, Tormenting, Excruciating.

Each day you wrestle for the things that will completely destroy you. You build walls because you know it will prevent from the hurt. You think isolating yourself will make you feel any better. Somehow yes, but it does not completely going to save you. it will not change the thought that you’ve never been abandoned.

These are the moments that you just really want to dispose yourself, because you hit the point of being tired. You are unsure what awaits you for tomorrow. You are unsure if new hope will sprang up for it’s own betterment. You completely feel that you lost yourself.

You try to escape but it only gets you more deeply entangled. No matter what path you choose, you just get caught and caught for the same fine.

You’re trying to undo the damage but to your surprise, you only make it worse.

Oh! man, love is like heaven and hell.. Really it is.

if love goes the way it’s meant to be, let it be alive.If love seems senseless, let it sleep.

P.S I wrote this at my notebook as draft during some time in december. You know, sleepless nights.